Stressed Out

So, I'm hoping that by writing about this it will help me get it out and be less stressed about it...not counting on it though.

This morning, I took j to day care and received information that she was going to be closed a couple of days in March and 4 days in April. She is getting married and going on a honeymoon....I understand, but here's my frustration. In the beginning, she had told us that she would have a back up for days when she needed off...Fine, I can deal with that, however, that is no longer the case....I'm very irritated about it all. So now we are looking for child care AGAIN! I hate it.....we went to a place this afternoon and my fear is that our current day care lady will find out....and we will tell her, but not quite yet....I hate being at the mercy of day care people....we have to have it, but it's such a bitch to find it. I didn't like the place today just because there are so many kids, but it's reliable because it is a center....of course we thought that about the first place we had j in....and wish that would of worked out. I'm just very stressed about it right now....in the end, everything works out, but I hate going through the process...I wish I was better at handling stess....

Maybe I better re-read the things I am grateful for....this morning, I walked in on my co-worker who lost her daughter last fall, who was crying....it is Tuesday and they found her on a Tuesday....I can't even imagine, so maybe I just need to remember what to be thankful for and this isn't that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things.

OK, things will work out and I know that, it just might be a challenging process.

Painted Toes

So, last night I was painting my toenails in prepartion for sandal season (This weather has me anxious) and j decided her had to be painted to. She sat down next to me and pointed to her toes. I happily obliged. Lately she has really been into wanting to do what I do when it comes to getting ready....I have to put lotion on her cheeks, deodorant in her armpits as she is point to them and a touch of lipstick for the final product. What a girl!

Grateful

1. I'm grateful to be alive.



2. I'm grateful for a beautiful daughter that makes me laugh, gives me hugs and kisses and is a very good child. I'm still wondering if I'm doing this whole mom thing right, and still can't believe I am actually a "mom."



3. I'm grateful for my husband who has helped create "my family."



4. I'm grateful to have a job in these times.



5. I'm grateful that my family is healthy.



6. I'm grateful that our dog and j get along so good.



7. I'm grateful that winter is almost over!



8. I'm grateful that I get to sleep until 6:15 am on weekdays.



9. I'm grateful that I have wonderful friends, even though I don't see them that often.....I always enjoy when I get together with each of them and have lunch, shop or go to movies and catch up.



I don't know why this was so difficult for me, but it was....I wanted to come up with 10 and I couldn't....and as I look back over it, I think a couple of them are superficial. I've been thinking a lot about my life/relationships after reading Auntie D's blogs and Rae Rae's....especially the Love Dare....that would be very challenging for me right now...so I thought I would try my own thing to help my relationships with myself and others, and the grateful list was my way of starting. It also helps me to know that others struggle with the same things I do in these relationships. Thank you

Winter blues

It's another cold winter day. I decided a couple of weeks ago that I have the winter blues. I'm tired of this crap. I blame my lack of energy on the cold weather. I've had a hard time getting motivated for anything. UGH. The spring like days that we've had this past month were great, but I wanted MORE! I am really looking foward to being outside and playing with j. I also like it when the sun is shining when I have to get out of bed to go to work. It's so much easier then.

We haven't done much this weekend. Watched Burn After Reading last night and wasn't very impressed. I believe j has had the most energy out of all of us.

One exciting thing though, is that a couple of weeks ago, my nephew Zach signed his letter of intent (is that what it is called??) to play football at Northwest. He got a little bit of a scholarship. I think he's pretty excited about the opportunity. I hope everything works out for him.

Have a great week.

Feb 16

So, I'm sitting at the kitchen table watching j put a pea on her fork and then eat it. She's not very good with forks/spoons yet, but sometimes it's funny to watch.

The weekend is over and back to work tomorrow. It was good though...Friday, I finished up some cleaning. j went to daycare again, and I ended up taking a relaxing bath. It was WONDERFUL. Of course, I had guilt about it, but nonetheless, I did enjoy it.

Saturday, J's parents were here and watched j while we went to St. Joe. We went to see Gran Torino, which if you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it! I thought it was a great movie. We then went out to eat. Everywhere we went, there was an hour wait, so we ended up at the Ground Round. It wasn't too bad...I was a bit skeptical at first, but it turned out pretty decent.

I thought about your party this weekend D and am hoping that your business takes off. Plus, I love all the purses you show on your blog. You are so crafty! I would love to be like that, but I'm the type to start things and not finish them. I'm really bad about that, but I love the planning part of, the follow through, not so good at.

Oh, so here's something funny for you. Saturday night J noticed that j's shoes were two different sizes! The thing about is that she has had these shoes since October! How did I never notice? The funny part is she would always take off the right shoe (the bigger one) and we would always wonder why! Now we know. So I'm thinking that since it's just a few more months until summer, I'll just keep her in those shoes, it's worked for 5 months, what's a couple more! However, we are still hanging on to the glimmer of hope that another girl at day care has the same shoes and she just came home with the wrong ones. I'm really not counting it, because I do recall when I strap on the shoes, the velcro on one seemed to go farther than the other....hmm, you would have thought that would have given me the first clue. Nope, never even thought to look! Oh well. Crazy mom move on my part.

Have a great week.

One day over

Oh, I'm so bummed that the first day of my five days off is over....I spent the entire day cleaning and running errands. I'm so glad I got most of the house cleaned. I know nobody will probably even notice, but it feels like such an accomplishment. I still need to clean and organize the other bedroom and I will do that tomorrow. But I'm going to sleep as long as Jae will let me. I'll take her to day care again, so I can get done faster.

I'm looking foward to Grey's Anatamy tonight! Anxious to see what happens.....

Whew

Oh last week was busy...J has been teaching classes again on Monday nights, so Monday was busy. Tuesday and Thursday I worked late and Wednesday night, we had a surprise "Grandma" shower for a co-worker of mine. She was totally shocked and it was a good time. Friday night, J went to happy hour, so every night I did not want to do anything. So glad last week is over.

The weekend seemed just as busy. Saturday, we went to Liberty to our old neighbor's 2 yr. old's birthday party. We stopped and shopped for a new computer and bought a new laptop. Our desktop was on it's last leg. I love the new computer....it's so much faster. Yesterday, we headed to York for the day. J's sister just had a new baby on Thursday, and so we went to visit. I feel like we have been in the car all weekend. j did really good though. It was just the last 1/2 hour of the ride there and back that she got crabby....but it was so sweet because on the way home, as long as I was holding her hand, she was fine...LOVED IT!

J is off again tonight teaching...so I'm sitting here watching the Bachelor and trying to catch you all up with us.

I'm hoping this week is much calmer....I have to work late again tomorrow, but then I'm off work Thursday through Monday!!! I can't wait. Thursday, I am cleaning the house. I'm actually starting to look forward to it. To me, it's such a good feeling once all the work is done and the house is clean and organized. Joe's parents are planning on coming in on Saturday and staying to Sunday....I think J and I are going on a date Saturday....woo hoo!

OK, I think that's it for today!